i think that people make judgements and act upon those judgements based on a category or type that’s familiar to them and i also think that’s goes at least doubly so for anyone that has to serve the public for their livelihoods.
people see me as a type when i put no effort in and i didn’t realize that until i got my neuro divergence assessment results and fully embraced the “fakeness” that my social butterfly mother taught me as a child.
i resisted it for decades because i also felt like the doctors were just chasing a paycheck and the proctors where just going through the motions and i regret the years i wasted the despite bad experiences with several of doctors & proctors.
i’ve since learned that no one has your best interests at heart except maybe family or friends. it’s very cliche and it’s very true and i hate that i have to forge and create my own world despite that knowledge underpinning it.
i hope you figure it out something that works for you; it sounds like you’re in a bad place rn based on your posts and i think that this is the only way i can help.
i don’t think that they’re much different, if at all.