Please leave me alone

Thank you

You are the one who presumed to know what I do or don’t actually want. Thank you for your attempt at kindness but it really didn’t come off like that to me. I think its best to end this interaction here as its not going to be productive for either of us. Sorry.

Edit: oh i thought you were the person who I was responding too but you are not… in that case please leave me alone, thankyou…

i wasn’t asking for advice and its not welcome

sometimes people will really fuckin hurt you and you won’t ever get an apology

im trying very hard to quit smoking weed… i know it’s not the same as nicotine addiction but it’s still a struggle. I smoked weed almost every day for like 6 years or something.

its annoying cus like i will be reminded of it constantly, weed culture is everywhere, memes and shows and movies and books. I get reminded and i want it, I get the urge and its hard not to smoke a little. i will go days or weeks without any but then I will fuck up and smoke again and suddenly i will be smoking every day again for a few weeks.

edit: i wasn’t asking for advice, i have a therapist I am working with please stop trying to give me advice its not what I want or need and I don’t like it, it makes me super incredibly uncomfortable. Its not helping. Thank you

Basically any and all compliments make me feel like shit, it’s not a good quality of mine but its the truth

Before I transitioned being called handsome hurt, I didn’t want that. Since I transitioned I have been called beautiful and sexy. I still feel bad, I don’t believe them. It’s odd because… I can kinda see what they mean? Like I personally like how I look sooo much better now it’s insane, but from other people it feels like a lie. Or else it makes me feel like I’m just an object to them, like an exotic sex thing, not a person.

I work as a gpu/graphics programmer, and people say I’m smart and talented. I never believe it, ever. When I was young I did not do well in school, like special ed classes. That early life experience is still internalized. It’s why I push myself really hard at the detriment of my own health. I truly believe I am not a smart person despite recognizing why people think I am.

Last year I was diagnosed autistic with Persistent Demand Avoidance sub type. I have read online that PDA people often struggle with compliments. Its super fucked tbh, I can never feel good about any accomplishment, nothing is enough, and I feel unlovable.

Alcohol, I just dont like the taste

I smoke weed occasionally but even that I have been trying to cut out cus I abused it for years

Pop my knees

Smarties :3 tbh not a bad name for such a cutie 🥰

The fact that you think these things are even remotely comparable is kinda part of the problem

Thats what my brother does, but he is a cis het man who works in construction as an electrician. He is very left leaning so he does try to challenge things where he can.

But I can’t do that. I am a trans woman and confrontation legitimately would put me in danger and it wouldn’t work anyways. People claim I am biased because I am in a group who is being targeted, its bullshit beyond belief but thats how people are.

Your understanding of the effects of immigration is childish.

Transphobia on lemmy with 400 upvotes… this website is getting worse every day

Lemmy going 2 seconds without complaining about tankies challenge impossible…

this website has defo been infiltrated by right-wing groups

They tried taking turns, but Sam learned what it felt like to want the Ring, and knew he couldn’t do it again.

I just listened to the books again. They didn’t really try to take turns. Sam thought frodo was dead so he took it to keep it from the orcs. And even after he gave it back he offered a few times to carry it again because frodo was so weak, but frodo wouldn’t let him and definitely was freaked out a when sam asked. The book describes frodo suddenly thinking sam was an orc or a thief trying to take the ring from him.

no idea what this weird little guy wants

to be GOAT gardener

Making friends as an adult

red tape

I just make the change and put it in for review and then move on with my life… most the time its not turned away if its a good change. Even if there wasn’t any task or discussion before hand, and if it’s small enough I can just do it quick then I won’t be disappointed if people want it done a different way. At least for me it feels like people like it when I just make a decision and solve the problem instead of bogging them down with discussing everything before hand

But yeah lots of times “simple” changes are not actually simple in the system as it already exists… and that can be frustrating but thats software…

I think the definition of consciousness needs to not be solely about abilities or attributes. It needs to account for the active process of consciousness. Like a hair dryer can burn things… but a fire is things burning. Without the active nature its simply not conscious.